Teaching must be a calling

Many of my students keep asking me when I'm going to leave. Well.. I kinda know, but not very sure about it. I actually am quite sick of teaching a bunch of brats, raising my voice constantly to compete with the incredible noise. Most of all, I hate myself when I lose my temper and I vent my frustration on the kids. Like today, I stopped teaching for half an hour cos I was simply pissed off.

And then, there is the marking. After marking, I still need to chase the students who have not handed in their work. And currently, I'm in really bad shape, apparently, I'm supposed to collect their math files to show Mdm Wong what they have been doing. OH NO.

Enough of the gripes already. I could go on all day but I better not. On a happier note, I must say I've made some good friends with my students. However, I do notice it's the boys who like to disturb me. I have chatted with some of the girls but I find few friends among them.

When it comes to favoritism, I'm not sure if I practise it openly. Yeah, there are students whose academic ability is so high that I always praise them, especially my Koream students. But it's with a consciousness that I stop myself from putting anyone down. After teaching for some time, I don't think I'll ever condemn a teacher for calling a child stupid, even if it's my child. Nobody is really at fault here. In times like this, both sides struggle and the occasional burst of not so nice speech ensues.

We cannot wish for every child to be bright and every teacher to be patient and willing.