Compromising

For the past week, from Monday to Friday, I've eaten dinner out everyday. I feel almost homesick. Next week, no appointments. SHOO, everyone!

Do you know that when I turned 19, I told God that I'm staying single til my 21st birthday? The reasons are another story, but a big one was really setting aside the last years of my glorious teenage youth for ministry work and taking that buffer time to grow up. I thought this promise to God would be chicken feet. Staying single only what, no big deal right? Wrong! I don't really know how to elaborate, but the kind of single-mindedness and discipline is tough to cultivate. It's so easy to go on dates, flirt. They just seem harmless. But deep down, I just know that I'm compromising my stand with God.

Why am I talking about this? Well for one, for a long time I know my posts have been superficial. I find it tough to talk about my life. But hey, a blog is for influence right? So my point is, for the above para, yes this is one area I wrestle with God. True, I've read the Christian relationship books, heard from the older leaders and pasters, but that doesn't make application easy. Nevertheless, He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world. Just gotta run this race and trust God. :)