just a few more weeks

I'll be teaching for at least another 3.5 weeks, til Mid-Year Exams are over. I asked my HOD what she would do if I were to quit now, she said, 'I'll be depressed and go into a decline.' Haha.

I'm getting more and more depressed. Take today for example, I was practically going crazy teaching Remainder Theorem to the Sec 3s today. Towards the end, I was nearly teaching in a scolding manner. It was, to me, such an EASY thing to understand. Ok, from one point of view, it could be that I'm a lousy teacher. From another, it's because some of their minds are not nimble enough to learn math.

Earning $65 a day is not joke. True, it's well paying but the kind of emotional stress I suffer is traumatic. Recently, I was mulling over the issue that my Sec 3s are possibly hating me to the core. I used to have to a nice, act-cute student who would do my work and was one of the top in the class. When I recently was very harsh towards him, he completely gave me a 180 attitude change, he became quite rude and stopped being friendly.When I pass him by in school, he usually ignores me. NOW, somehow, he's gone back to his cutesy style. I mean, this is emotionally draining ok. MARKY is right, I've got to detached myself. Even more.

I was just asking my colleagues, 'Who are the parents of these students? Why isn't simple things like respect, hardwork and every other normal moral values instilled in them? Where does the attitude of 'I'm always right' come from?' ok. I need to get a hold. haha